a few days ago..
me & baby had a big argument..
baby show temper ):
i was freaking afraid till i cried.
i didn't like him to get upset.
than he will start to hit things to hurt himself.
he always do that to get the anger out.
but my heart hurts when he does that.
after he vent his anger on his window.
he left the room & out of his house.
he trying to cold down..
but i was really scared & upset at the moment.
i put on my jacket & wanted to leave the house.
before i can leave. he came back.
he stopped me.
outside of his house we argued.
he didn't let me go.
he wanted to me to say
" i don't love you anymore "
this sentence than he will let me go.
after i said. he didn't let me still.
he couldn't.
i really want to give it all up at that moment.
i couldn't take it.
but i am happy that my baby didn't let go.
after all that. i figure out.
i do love him loads.
more than anyone could.
i couldn't just walk away from him.
even i did. i will turn back.
but what if one day i walk away.
& when i turn back he is not there anymore?
i didn't want to let that day come.
i never want us to live our life without each other.
i need him.. i love him..
we are late for our movie. Ip Man 2.
about 20mins late.
i still want to watch.
we went in & watch the halfway movie.
but after all turn out not bad..
& yeah. during the movie.
i held on to his hand.
wondering. what if just now he didn't hold me back.
i didn't know where to go.
i don't know what to do..
sorry baby for my attitude that day ):
i just want you to know that i love you.
i do. i love everything you say to me.
i just hope for your temper to be better.
this message was sent by my baby. (:
2 May 2010
you've no idea how much
my heart ached when you did say
you didn't love me anymore.
i initially thought i could just let you go.
that it wouldn't affect me much.
little did i know,
watching you walk away
almost killed me.
i wished and wished against
all odds that i could just hug you
and say i'm sorry & you'd forgive me.
but i know i broke a promise to you.
before that night,
ever single wish stick i made in my cig pack
is that we'd last till the end.
now, my wish is that
i wish i can make Charmaine
be happy everyday.
tonight i can sleep knowing you're still mine,
knowing that it's physically impossible
to let you go.
to stop loving you.
i can't. i'm sorry.
i do love you. just you. only you.
it has to be you.
i've fallen head over heels to deeply
for the perfect girl for me.
promise you'll never leave,
because i promise that my love for you is forever.
Sent By Joey at 11.01pm
& yeah i didn't give him a nice reply..
not because i didn't want to.
it was because my phone didn't have prepaid. :x
but if my phone do have prepaid..
i will reply like this...
baby you didn't know how hard was it for me
look straight into your eyes & say.
" i don't love you anymore. "
you didn't know how pain my heart was.
every beat it was like knifes stabbing into my heart.
i wished you did let me go.
cause i was scared.
scared of your temper.
i wished you didn't let me go.
cause i still love you. i do.
when i walked away.
i was hoping for you to chase after me.
when i said i never want to see you again.
i actually want you to be the one i see
every morning when i wake up
& every night before i sleep..
i wanted to just forgive you.
but i couldn't just forgive you that moment.
i was scared.
i was afraid all this will happen again.
i also want to last till the end.
but we cannot just depend on the wishing cig.
we both have to work hard for this.
work hard for all the plans we make.
our beach wedding..
our condo..
our 50years time park romance.
many more others plans.
i still want my waffle dates with you.
i want my chicken rice madness with you.
i still want to cook for you..
i still want so many more..
to make me happy..
just stay happy.
together we will make everything alright.
i love you stupidness baby.
R.I.P . Stupid Girl. (:
mama & papa loves you. x3s.
`Loves,
`XiaoDouDou. ♥.
@ 11:24 PM
`XiaoDouDou. ♥.
@ 11:24 PM
`To Last With Baby.