`Sweett-Sensation. (:

Joey hate his vegetables.

he never once eats them & never will.

even the ones in his all time favorite chicken rice soup!

he never will eat them.

he would just take them out with his spoon.

& throw them to the corner of his plate.

he still hates those greens on his plates.

but now due to some unfaithful tragedy.

i, his girlfriend, is a vegetable.

i couldn't walk,

with him to see the world.

i couldn't talk.

to tell him how much i loves him.

i couldn't open my eyes,

to see his smiles anymore.

he didn't like any vegetables on his plates.

but now? he loves his vegetable girlfriend.

it all started because of the little argument over

not sleeping together with me again

because of playing dota till 7 in the morning.

when i woke up..

i found out he was still not in bed with me.

so i got up & said..

" you liar. now soon 7 already still not asleep.

said a few games but now still playing.. "

he replied,

" really just a few games. this is the 3rd one only. "

i didn't bother to listen further.

i left his room.

not because i was angry or what.

just because i was really urgent to go to the washroom.

i walked to the kitchen quickly.

& i saw his mother in the kitchen.

i said, " hello.. good morning.. "

she smiled & replied, " be careful the floor is.. wet... "

before she could finish her sentence.

i slipped & fall backwards.

i got my head knocked against to a sharp edge.

in reality. there's no drawers nor cupboards

near his toilet. ._.

but i didn't know why my dream will have.

continuing..

i had a really bad fall..

blood flooding out from the back of my head.

as if it was like a spoilt tap.

his mother shouted for Joey.

" JOEY! JOEY COME QUICK! "

he rush out from his room

not even finishing his game.

he ran into the kitchen..

& saw me there in a pool of blood.

( quite dramatic. anyways it's just a dream. )

he ran towards me..

& held on me tight in his hands.

he didn't know what to do or say.

all he could do was crying &

thinking what will happen to me.

what if he loses me..

his mother called the ambulance.

it will of cause take a while before the ambulance

would reach his house.

even my dream knows that. ._.

after his snapped out from his thoughts.

he carried me out of his house..

with my little green towel i left at his house

on the 1st day we met..

the towel was tied onto my head.

to try to stop the bleeding obviously.

just that. it was not green anymore.

now it's red. bloody red.

till than the bleeding still didn't stop..

he took the lift down.

than run down the main road with me

carried onto his hands.

i didn't know why he didn't ask his mum

to take me to the hospital with her car.

( sometimes dreams are real weird. )

he was looking out for the ambulance.

the stupid ambulance still not here..

& like in normal stories & drama shows..

there was no taxi in sight..

always like that.

when one need something it's never there.

& when one don't need something.

it would be there. ._.

he ran towards the direction of the

nearest hospital.

didn't know how but yeah..

they spotted him.

about a few minutes later.

the ambulance spotted him.

i don't know how. but yeah.

they spotted him.

& stopped to help him.

they carried me up into the ambulance.

& off we go.~

in the ambulance..

they trying their best to stop the bleeding..

the bleeding didn't stop.

but it didn't bleed as much as just now.

he held on to my hands..

full of tears..

his tears dripping down his cheeks..

he said..

" baby.. baby.. look at me..

open your eyes.. i'm here!

don't ever leave me okay?!

stay strong. stay strong baby.

i need you!

Cookie Jar & Stupid Girl needs you.

( stupid girl is the hamster that baby

brought for me after i blog finish yesterday. (: )

your other hamsters need you too! "

he kept holding onto my hands so tightly.

finally.. reached the hospital.

they rush me into the emergency room.

silly baby wanted to go in with me.

but he can't ):

that was when he was force to let go of my hand.

the doctors were trying really hard

to stop the bleeding from my head

& replace the blood that i lost.

during the operation. he waited outside..

he couldn't stop thinking what is going to happen next.

walking up & down the hospital corridors.

worried & scared..

thinking whether today is the day

he is going to lose me.

after a while his mother than my family reached

the hospital to wait for me.

1st time seeing my mother crying over me.

i guess.. hmmm..

after the operation..

the doctors came out.

& told them i am in coma.

i maybe still in danger.

cause of the blood clot in my brain.

i might become vegetable..

weeks & months passed..

i still not awake.

Joey still have to go to army.

so every book outs he came down

to the hospital & accompany me

till it's time to book in to his camp.

the doctors confirm i became a vegetable.

i can't do anything..

after that. every weekend when he books out.

Joey would bring me around Singapore.

not on his bike obviously.

taking the MRT together.

just that i was on the wheelchair.

& i can't make any sound anymore.

i can't scold or smile at him.

i can't even look at him.

but he will still stand by me & talk to me.

every weekend he brings me to different

parts of Singapore to " see ".

& every 2weeks he will bring me to the movies

to " watch " a movie with him.

every once in the month.

he will bring me to Sentosa to get some sun.

& till the day he don't need to go back to army.

after that. he will bring me to " see " the world.

like the newspaper article he showed me

about 1month ago..

it's really darn sweet & loving.

this is where my dream stopped.

i woke up in tears..

i didn't know why..

i didn't know whether it's a nightmare

or a real sweet dream..

i woke up & wrote all this on the piece of paper.

i am scare i will forget the dream.

than from the paper i transfer all

to this blog.. (:

the newspaper article..

this women takes her late hubby's ashes on world tour.

her husband wanted to see the world.

but he had a fear of flying.

he just gone on a plane twice.

soon after he died from colon cancer at the age of 68..

over the past three years..

the UK woman has carried his ashes on a world tour

covering more than 88,000km spread over four continents.

the countries she visited include

China, Italy, Israel, New Zealand and Turkey.

she also visited the Swiss Alps.

Wherever the 63-year-old visited,

she scattered some of his ashes.

she has walked the Great Wall of China,

trekked through a New Zealand rainforest

and made a pilgrimage to the Holy Land in his memory.

that also means that parts of her husband

are spread across four continents.

the daily mail quoted Mrs Munns, ( the widow. )

a retired nurse, as saying that her travel was

" extremely emotional".

" i do this because if he had lived longer,

we would have tried to travel

to all kinds of places together. "

" i had Richard for 40 years,

which makes me so lucky because

we were total soul mates. "

" this is my way of giving something back. "

this was what she said.. (:

Fear of flying.

she said his death has left a massive hole

in her life and wherever she goes,

there is " something missing ".

she recalled that the two times he took

a flight with her when he was alive,

he gripped her hand throughout

the journey as she talked him through

breathing exercises to calm him down.

their first trip was to Italy

to visit their daughter.

the second was in 2005 when

they flew to Canada.

it was their final attempt to see the world, she said.

the couple were planning a trip to

New Zealand when he died..

Mr Munns' ashes have also been scattered in

their home village, Fordham in Cambridgeshire,

where he was born, and Dundee,

where his wife was born.

the couple met in Suffolk in 1964.

they married in 1969.

they had two children and five grandchildren.

she told the telegraph:

" towards the end of his life, he couldn't go anywhere."

" he was in an awful lot of pain

and was in his wheelchair because he couldn't walk.

i am so grateful that i had him for as long as i did."

she said he had always wanted to see so much more

of the world than he did..

" now there is a little piece of him

in all of those magical places,"

the daily mail quoted her as saying.

she plans to set of another trek to

Jordan in November..

for the better or for the worst.

he will still loves me for who i become.

i didn't know why i will have that weird dream.

maybe i think too much.

but yeah. it reminds me how much i love him.

& he told me once before.

he will love me no matter what i have become.

even a monster he will love me.

just like how much the widow loves her late husband..

thanks baby for what you did.. (:

thanks for giving me a wonderful breakfast just now.

he took his bike & went to Eunos & one more place

to get my breakfast toast & curry puffs i wanted.

he don't need to.

but he wants to. :D

thanks stupidness baby.

for EVERYTHING!!

thanks for the hamster you gave me.

& the wonderful breakfast..

i love you Fuck-tard. x3s.

`Since, 26thMarch10. (:

`Loves,
`XiaoDouDou. ♥.
@ 7:54 AM

muahahaha!

now at baby's house alone! (:

baby went out to work.

i suppose to follow him.

but yeah. i am too tired to follow.

i slept till 3.30pm+

yesterday i came over to baby's house.

i took the MRT to his house.

i even took Cookie Jar along!

Cookie Jar is my special hamster.

why is it called Cookie Jar?

well. for a simple reason.

he is living in a Cookie Jar. (:

hahaha!

& Cookie Jar cannot grow bigger.

he have some problems.

Cookie is actually about 2months + old.

but he still look like 3weeks + old hamster.

Cookie Jar accompanied me to baby's place.

during the MRT ride to Pasir ris..

i carry Cookie Jar into the MRT.

well. once i tap in.

& went down to wait for the train.

i notice people who walked by.

& standing nearby me were looking at me

either is because of my weird sense of wearing clothes.

or they were wondering what was so important

in the Jar that i hugged it tightly & didn't want to drop it.

when i went into the train.

i stood at the side of the doors.

still. loads of people stared at me.

some smiled at me.

they found out it's just a little hamster.

i took 35mins of staring..

once i reached the end of the stop~

finally. i am out!

people were staring as if

i am some kind of monkey in the zoo.

i walked from the train station to his house.

took about only 8mins or so.

cannot wait to meet baby with my new hair cut.

& with Cookie Jar.

once i reached baby's house.

i put down my things.

& hugged him (:

i missed him so though it's only a few days.

but baby was kinda in a bad mood.

cause of me ):

i was late to meet him.

& the pet shop closed.

he wanted to buy me another hamster.

not just another hamster.

a hamster that i will always remember.

that special one he gave me.

& he wanted me to have a special place

in my heart for his hamster.

just like Cookie Jar. :D.

after i reached his house.

i watched American next Top Model.

after watching finish.

i soon fall asleep. ._.

was too tired... haha!

before meeting baby..

i was all the way at home. (:

busy training my hero, x3HisNEHJI.

now level144 already.

& my bishop still level190.

as there's no sponsor to train for.

needed to earn mesos.. blahblahblah.

._. all this maple thing i go write in

my another blog better! (:

anyways baby! thanks for trying yesterday.

even if there's no gifts.

i don't mind.

all i need is you staying by me. :D

i love you baby fishballyhead! x3s.

`Loves,
`XiaoDouDou. ♥.
@ 4:18 PM

just now was me & baby's 1month.

we somehow argued.

as i broke my promise for him.

well, he was not angry though i broke my promise.

a promise that i would talk to him.

not doing anything just talking to him.

i wanted to drag the little time we had for talking

for maple. ._. stupid game.

i wanted to level190 so badly.

i told him to wait for me for 20mins

just for me to level up.

but yeah. he told me he wanted to hang up.

so i got pissed..

i know i shouldn't have.

he had a tiring day.

& every weekday.

the same thing again & again.

it was our 1st month yet i didn't give in. ):

i didn't know what to do.

after all i done..

he still loves & cares for me.

i don't understand why.

do my stupidness fishballyhead

love me that much?

if he does. i am happy.

that's all i wanted.

all he wanted was to have a chat with me.

& i can't even do it right.

haix. now thinking what to do...

i go read all the sweet little messages

which baby sent wo ba!

Happy Late 1st Month Baby! ):

i love you stupidness idiot. x3s.

`Loves,
`XiaoDouDou. ♥.
@ 12:22 AM

hey all (: weeeweee!

i am back from my mini holiday

at stupiness baby's house!

just came back not long ago.

took the mrt back with baby & his friend.

at the same time i just came back from the toilet.

had a tummy ache.

if not wrong it's cause of

the terrible ice-cream i ate. ._.

anyways.

i had the most unforgettable weekend with him!

on Friday, baby waited for me at

Tiong Bahru Mrt station for me.

together head to his house.

on Friday was our 4th week.

i was going to cook a meal for him.

so yeah. i actually wanted to buy the food

but it's already 10.30 when we reach his house.

he need to bath & change than head to E hub

to meet his friends.

still there was not enough time for me to buy

my stuffs i needed ):

so we decided to go on Saturday when we wake up.

baby took his bike to E hub.

as he was LAZY to walk!

Reachhheddd there finally. (:

we took off our helmets

& my stupid nice & thoughtful baby

asked me..

" baby do you want me to hold your helmet for you? "

so sweet scare i fall down than the helmet hit my head.

hor baby? (:

i am your clumsy girlfriend.

until now you still haven't teach me how to walk.

hahaha! continue.

we chiong for the blinking traffic light.

we made it in time across! :D.

because stupidness baby drag me & pull me! haha.

we took the lift up to the 4th floor.

meet baby's friends for pool & slack.

well. baby won loads of time.

because i am there to support him! :x

haha!

during the game.

baby's stupid friend, Calvin,

keep trying to annoy me.

wanting to see me angry.

idiotic guy! :x

after awhile.

they end their game.

we head to Subway to buy food~

meet his friends back at mac smoking area.

we ate there & they talk about their things.

comparing almost every girl they know.

looks. bed skills...

any other thing that could be compare.

hahaha! so idiotic.

after chatting for while.

we head back home..

to baby's home of cause.

oh wait.

before we went back.

baby stupidly go to central.

force me to packet food back to his house.

so yeah i packet some rice & others.

head back to his house eat already..

i read some of his comics than fall asleep.

he was playing dota like mad.

he played 3 games with his friends.

all 3 games he CLAIMS he won.

hahaha! i don't know but yeah..

after that stupidness baby came to sleep with me.

after we woke up.

it's already about 4 to 5 in the afternoon.

we went to bath. prepare.

head to Shop and Save. (:

we brought quite a number of food.

not alot but fine. enough for us.

chicken wing.

something like popcorn chicken.

luncheon meat.

& hotdog.

got other stuff also.

but not for cooking a meal.

head back to baby's house.

i cook for him.

even the rice.

1st time cooking rice. :x

baby's marmie helped me with it.

& the rice was an success :D!

but chicken wings do wrong.

so yeah didn't cook chicken wings.

others went fine.

after cooking.

we eat at the living room

& watched cheaper by the dozen 2.

i think that's the movie title.

not bad. but the movie was halfway through already.

i think i watched it before.

i didn't remember. :D

but i enjoyed the movie.

after eating.

we didn't finish up the food.

there were too much food.

we clear up the mess i made.

went to the room & watch movies!

my wife is a gangster 1

& my wife is a gangster 2.

didn't watch finish the 2nd one.

but yeah.

& i watched them before.

i don't mind watching again.

as it was not bad at all.

funny & idiotic.

hahaha!

after watching finish 1.

we watched some of part 2.

after that baby went to play dota.

& me went to the bed started drawing.

later i complained about baby

keep dotaing didn't pei me sleep like he used to.

than he just straight away stopped his game

& pei me sleep! (: so sweet of him.

baby told me i have to wake up at 11am.

i said okays. after awhile we fall asleep.

11.10 i woke up.

stupid baby still sleeping.

i want to cook the chicken wings i didn't get to cook.

so i head to the Shop and Save yesterday we went.

to get the eggs & other stuffs i needed.

but once i reached there?

it started to rain.

really heavily.

i didn't know how to get back.

so yeah i run in the rain.

hahaha!

get a little wet.

it's okay.

head home & started preparing.

in the end?

the chicken wings 90% was yucky.

outside look cooked inside UNCOOKED!

we ate about 3 or 4 out of 20.

hahaha! idioitc! ):

sorry about my cooking!

1st time cooking chicken wings.

but i know baby did enjoyed that night food. (:

after eating chicken wings.

we went to E hub for our waffle day!

but it was closed.

so we went another store.

that's more exp.

but i didn't like it at all.

made me tummy ache.

after eating ice cream.

i suddenly wanted to eat chicken rice.

which is baby's favorite food. (:

we went to buy & ate so full!

it's already 5.45pm when we were heading back.

have to meet baby's friend at 6.30 at Tamp. MRT.

so we rush.

we are a little late.

but lucky baby's friend haven't reach there.

waited for him about 15mins.

he came & off we go (:

haha!

thanks baby for this special week.

i love you idiotic baby!

i just hope you will not vent your anger on anything.

Wo Ai Ni! x3s.

`Loves,
`XiaoDouDou. ♥.
@ 8:11 PM